My week with Gandhi

I received this book as a present when I was 14 – The Life of Mahatma Gandhi by Louis Fischer.

Born in Philadelphia and a journalist at the “New York Post”, He was one of the outstanding authorities on global politics in Russia, India and the Middle East, where he spent several years. The man’s style of writing is completely classic, be it the way the sentences dance around before coming to the point, or the way the narrative is complete and detailed, or even the way the conversations are brought completely alive.

I have attempted to read this book several times before, and I have always got stuck at the chapter which describes Gandhiji’s youthful and bachelor days. This time I directly skipped to this chapter titled “My week with Gandhi”. A beautifully written chapter, and I am going to type out two pages from this chapter which have impacted me heavily.

Old people are prone to reminiscences. Lloyd George would commence to answer a question on current events and soon be talking about his conduct of the first World War or a campaign for social reform early in the century. At seventy-three, Gandhi never reminisced. His mind was on things to come. Years did not matter to him because he thought in terms of the unending future. Only the hours mattered because they were the measure of what he could contribute to that future.

Gandhi had more than influence, he had authority, which is less yet better than power. Power is the attribute of a machine; authority is the attribute of a person. Statesmen are varying combinations of both. The dictator’s constant accretion of power, which he must inevitably abuse, steadily robs him of authority. Power feeds on the blood and tears of its victims. Authority is fed by service, sympathy and affection.

One evening, I watched Mahadev Desai spin. I said I had been listening carefully to Gandhi and studying my notes and wondering all the time what was the source of his hold on people ; I had come to the tentative conclusion that it was his passion.

‘That is right’, Desai said.

‘What is the root of his passion?’, I asked.

‘This passion’, Desai explained, ‘is the sublimation of all the passions that flesh is heir to.’

‘Sex?’

‘Sex and anger and personal ambition…. Gandhi is under his own complete control. That generates tremendous energy and passion.’

It was a subdued, purring passion. He had a soft intensity, a tender firmness and an impatience cotton-wooled in patience. Gandhi’s colleagues and the British sometimes resented his intensity, firmness and impatience. But he retained their respect, often their love, through his softness, tenderness and patience.

Gandhi sought approval; he was very happy when the great Tagore agreed with him. But he could defy the whole world and his political next-of-kin.

Gandhi was a strong individual, and his strength lay in the richness of his personality, not in the multitude of his possessions. His goal was To be, not To have. Happiness came to him through self-realization. Fearing nothing, he could live the truth. Having nothing, he could pay for his principles.

Mahatma Gandhi is the symbol of the unity between personal morality and public action. When conscience dwells at home but not in the workshop, office, classroom and market-place, the road is wide open to corruption and cruelty and to dictatorship.

Gandhi enriched politics with ethics. He faced each morning’s issues in the light of eternal and universal values. He always distilled a permanent element out of the ephemeral. Gandhi thus broke through the framework of usual assumptions which cramp a man’s action. He discovered a new dimension of action. Unconfined by considerations of personal success or comfort, he split the social atom and found a new source of energy. It gave him weapons of attack against which there was often no defence. His greatness lay in doing what everybody could do but doesn’t.

‘Perhaps he will not succeed’, Tagore wrote of the living Gandhi. ‘Perhaps he will fail as the Buddha failed and as Christ failed to wean men from their iniquities, but he will always be remembered as one who made his life a lesson for all ages to come.’

Thatha tales

This is a true holiday. No nagging uni work to complete over the hols. Not many friends around in Chennai to catch up with. Appa amma totally busy with their year end work.  Chose not to pick any intense books and get hooked on to. No over-enthu holiday crash courses. Well, you get the idea.

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Speak out.

Words are beautiful. They give form to your thought. They describe. They promise. And they give you hope.

But then why are they referred to as  ”mere words”?

Whenever they are empty, and fail to have a purpose.

A word spoken with the intention to silence a person’s question can be considered as not  ”mere words”, but as an act.

A word uttered that brings about a smile and gives comfort is almost an act, but only if the word is spoken truly.

A word spoken to change and improve,

A word spoken to express love, is so truly one of the best words spoken.

A word that hurts is definitely an act, but not a desirable one.

A word that exposes truth may not always be an act, since truth hurts too.

A word spoken to bring about peace and silence is part of silence. Silence at the wrong times cannot be appreciated.

Count these word “Acts” of your life. May every word that we utter be a word “Act”.

Just an aeon

I heard a kid’s voice today….

Oh I am ready..

To be happy again.

For each one of you.

All I needed was..

that tiny little aeon of time.

To breathe..

and to get it all :)

And it is coming back.

slowly.

Don’t worry.

I will always be happy for you.

No matter what.

Just one small favor.

Let me be :)

You don’t even have to like me..

You just gotta let me be!!

Yaaay!

Actually.. I don’t like games..

I don’t like to play..

I don’t like to have fun…

I know.. am a weird kid…

And honestly.. I only want your smile..

reaching your eyes

from your heart..

And I will do anything for you..

anything.. that takes you towards it :)

My smile? Its being taken care of.


Peace.

Amazing Rendition

Do check out Irakkam Varaamal in this link, by Bombay Jayashri. I have not heard more beauty, admiration, love and closure at the same time… Enjoy the peace and bliss…

http://www.hummaa.com/music/album/23759/Confluence+Of+Elements

irakkam varAmal pOnadenna kAraNam En svAmi

karuNai kaDalenRunnaik-kAdir-kETTu nambi vandEn

Ala marundi aNDaruyirai Adaritta unadu kIrtti bAlakriSnan
pAdid-dinamum paNindiDum naTarAja mURti

vazhiyattanai nAsaiyilum pAlinchiDum shiva cidambaram vazhiyattanai
nAsaiyilum pAlinchiDum shiva paramenum mozhi kaTravar vazhiyiTRunai muppozhudum maranganE

My dear Perfectionists

If we seek perfection all the time,
And get hurt.

It just means
We are not as close to being perfect.

Oh why don’t we love the imperfect-ness instead?
Is not understanding and loving the imperfection,
the true meaning of perfection?
Oh its so easy, and so simple.. trust me.
And yes, we can all totally do it too.

Its not enough
If we just understood and loved imperfections.
We gotta do this, but quietly.
And… just live it….

Its quite alright
If we cant name
Or advertise it.
It really is.

Its quite okay
If it is not known outside
How many imperfections
We have understood and loved.

If we truly did,
It would all reveal itself.
Without a single push..

That’s the secret, my dear.

Let’s Learn.
Tolerate.
And Understand.

Its time. Quite the time.

Ethanai Kodi Inbam

 

So many beautiful pieces in this world.

So many unnoticed people.

So many unloved.

 

So much sunlight every single day.

So much music in the air and in the heart.

So much joy.

 

Ethanai Kodi Inbangal.

Zu viele schoene Momente .

Combien de beau monde!!!

Kitne saare haseen baatein….

So much to learn..

So so much to unlearn..

And so so much to know..

So many reasons to smile…

Deeply..

Happily…

and Quietly..


You gave them all.

Wow!

And so much do I struggle.

To utter that single most beautiful well formed word.

Thank you.. Nandri.. Shukriya.. Merci.. Danke.. Xie Xie.

Oh! Can I just have it all?

Every tree....

Every rainbow....

Every hill…..

And every little creek?

May I? Pretty please…?

An Ocean Refuses No River

This song, by Sheila Sandra.. I discovered it through ITunes Radio – New Age Station.. I so totally remember the first time I heard this song -From my room at Karlsruhe, watching the snow and gazing into the woods from my window..

Lovely and haunting experience.. She just beautifully leads you to infinity through her music, voice and words..

One of those songs, whose beauty grows steadily and deeply inside you.  A small titbit – Its in the Carnatic Raga Tilang!

I am not even attempting to interpret the lyrics.. It just leaves me speechless and numb :|

Ever so lonely
Ever so lonely without you
Ever so lonely

Sink into your eyes and all I see
Love is an ocean
And you for me

Sink into your eyes
Your eyes
Are all I see
Your love is an ocean

An ocean refuses no river
Ever so lonely
An ocean refuses no river

Waiting for the time when we can be alone together
Alone together
Eternally

The ocean, the ocean
Refuses no river

The ocean, your ocean
Refuses no river

Ever so lonely
Ever so lonely without you

Your ocean
Your ocean
Refuses no river


A University education

Its been four years.

Since I stepped out of my motherland.

To pursue undergraduation in a highly ranked University.

I have one semester to go, to try and finish my Final Year Project, get a job, and proceed to the next challenge of my life.

I am thinking, so what is it that this degree gave me or rather, is trying to brand me as?

That am a qualified Computer Engineer, employable and sellable and usable as a tool?

That am a socialite, with high conversational skills and intellectual depth (hopefully!)?

That am a coneisseur of it all – current affairs, humanitarian and global issues, technology, and am “uptodate” on all of these?

That I know how to dress up and present myself confidently in an interview, and I know how to “sell” myself?

Sigh..

And all I wanted was..

To dive deep inside science and logic..

To wonder at the marvels of technology..

To be so simple that I need not even bother about selling myself or being understood.

To have a constant study buddy, just like in school.

To speak with such scientific-ness, rationality and clarity, that not even a word of what I uttered would be doubted, or have the need to be verified.

To “NEVER” market and sell myself  (I cant stress this enough) !

University does turn our life around!

A beautiful “white” prayer..

This song, Vellai Pookkal, by ARR in the movie Kannathil Muthamittal – well one of his stunning songs, both as a musician and a singer.. Set in the raga Hamsadvani, the flute and the guitar interludes simply inspire you..

Honestly, I do not notice the lyrics of a song, and am more easily smitten by the tune and the music.. A deeper revisit to this song after several years, has taken me by surprise..  I sat translating it, and I was struck yet again by the beauty of my mother tongue and the injustice I was doing to it, by transforming it to an other language..

Bear with me.. :)

VeLLai PookaL ulagam engum malarhavae
vidiyum Bhoomi amaidhikaaga vidihavae
manmel manjal veluchcham vizhuhavae
malarae sombal muRiththu ezhuhavae
kuzhanthai vizhikattumae
Thaayin katha kathappil
ulagam vidiyattumae
piLLayin sirumugha siRippil (VeLLai)

kaatrin perisaiyil
mazhai paadum paadangalum oru maunam poal inbam tarumooOO
koadi keertanamum kavi koartha vaarthaiygalum thuLi kaNNer poal arththam tharumo (VeLLai)

yengusiru kuzhanthai than kaigal neetidumo
angu thondrayo koLLai nilavae
enghu manidha Inam poar oyinthu sayinthidumo
angu koovadho veLLai kuyilae (VeLLai)

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A beautiful “white” prayer..

May white flowers blossom all over the world..
May the restless earth open its eyes to peace..
May yellow rays of hope affect the soil..
May the drooping flowers stretch themselves awake..

May the child wake up
to the mother’s voice..
may the world wake up..
to the kid’s toothless smile..

The melodies in the breeze..
The lessons sung by the rain..
would these ever bliss you like peace?
crores of scores..
words strung by poets..
would these ever express a drop of tear?

where the child reaches its hands out..
May the moon reveal itself..
where the human battles cease..
may the white dove sing in peace..